Pile of bones

Fri, 22 Aug 2008 22:21:14 GMT

o god why are there so many birthdays on sep? i need money... so i can buy presents...

the matrix is coming

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 01:01:55 GMT

people just gotta build robots, dont they watch movies?!? dont know bout you but this rather freaks me out...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W1czBcnX1Ww&feature=related

the serenity prayer

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 01:38:24 GMT

Grant me the serenity to accept the things I can't change,
the courage to change the things i can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.

yay! meme!

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 17:32:49 GMT

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
asked a guy out

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
not really and im not going to bother

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
nope

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Nope

5. What countries did you visit?
none

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
a bachelor degree in media arts and animation

7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
dont think there is one.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
getting a boyfriend

9. What was your biggest failure?
not finishing school and not getting what i needed to get done

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
i cant remember being sick all year

11. What was the best thing you bought?
my cool ass skirt

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
weird question

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
dont feel like mentioning it

14. Where did most of your money go?
bills

15. What did you get really, really, really get excited about?
getting my skirt

16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
maybe i might be wrong and talk show host both by radiohead

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. Happier or sadder? ill have to say sadder
ii. Thinner or fatter? i got thinner i think
iii. Richer or poorer? richer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
school work

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Procrastinating

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Hopefully going back to see family and friends

21. Did you fall in love in 2007?
im not gonna call it love, too soon. i had a crush

22. How many one-night stands?
none

23. What was your favorite TV program?
Heroes, wrestling, south park, simpsons

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
no

25. What was the best book you read?
somewhere between steven colberts book and a book about myths that i cant remember the name of.

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
radio head and tool

27. What did you want and get?
a boyfriend

28. What did you want and not get?
a bachelor degree

29. What was your favorite film of this year?
simpsons i think

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
went out and did karaoke. 23

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
tank tops

32. What kept you sane?
My friends

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
i guess jeff hardy from wrestling

34. where did the question go?

35. Who did you miss?
my parents, liz, and bob

36. Who was the best new person you met?
my co-worker jeff

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:
dont think i learned one

2008 year of the rat

Wed, 02 Jan 2008 18:19:29 GMT

2008 year of the rat
happy new years! its the year of the rat! my year! may this year be better then the last for all of us!

merry fucking christmas

Wed, 26 Dec 2007 04:35:24 GMT

ah christmas, that time of year that will drive you crazy. i thought i was about to snap with all the christmas music at work. im glad to have a vacation that is for sure. my parents picked me up sat and we went to a christmas party that night. about 19 people counting my self and i only knew 5 and they were the people i came there with. watched two pool matches, ate some decent food, and chinese christmas. where they put numbers in a bowl, people draw them out, and get a random gift when there number was called. the trick is that if someone with a higher likes the gift that the person with the lower has they can choose to take that gift and the lower has to get another one. there were 17 numbers cause there were 2 kids that were too young to play. i got lucky number 17. my dad ended up opening a lot of presents cause people kept wanting his. he ended up getting a gag gift which was a rubber chicken and a toy sumo, which he got to pick another gift. we ended up with a cd player, a small chest, and a mug that can be plugged in to keep coffee warm. after spending the night at my aunts and uncles we had the long trip home, the back of an extra cab pickup is not a very comfortable place to be for 4 or more hours. christmas day was nice, didnt have many people and plenty of delicious food. i have already had some guilt and pity put on me, rather my parents meant to or not. they may just want me to appreciate what they are doing for me, in which i do. its good to see them and spend time with them, but i am ready to get back to atl. just as i suspected, i cant work on maya at home. i want to get back and start hunting... though i know its going to be tough, with work and school stuff, but i want to follow my bliss. i believe i will find my bliss that way for i dont seem to find it any other way, besides hanging out with friends. i know relationships can cause more problems but i feel as though this is what i want. so wish me luck. looking forward to seeing everybody when i get back. happy holidays!

oh yes, guess what? there is a theory that orange juice is to blame for my brooken out face. this makes me rather sad for i do enjoy orange juice and i believe it has served me well in keeping me from getting sick so far. i am going to test the theory and see if the crap on my face goes away. i guess ill just drink it when and if i get sick... which wont happen.

ood lyrics

Thu, 06 Dec 2007 02:12:48 GMT

You want me?
Fucking well come and find me
I'll be waiting
With a gun and a pack of sandwiches
And nothing

from radiohead song talk show host

something interesting

Wed, 21 Nov 2007 04:34:27 GMT

im reading this great book called the power of myth. it spoke of how the bird represents spiritual flight and the snake represents being bound to earth. put them together and you have a dragon or a snake with wings. in most cases both of these are seen to be great creatures, except for in the european states. i just find it interesting.

christmas list add

the power of myth book (im borrowing it right now, and would very much like to own it)
almost anything with stars, moons, suns, snakes, trees, wolves

back on track... hopefully

Mon, 19 Nov 2007 01:41:18 GMT

i had a theory, i tested it, and was correct. he is suffering from a similar torment. he cares for someone that dosent return his feelings. some how this solidified the fact that i must let him go. i feel at ease right now, i can only hope it stays like this.

mood swings

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 03:33:49 GMT

that didnt take long.... i feel like an addict. i have an urge to be with him. sense how i cant be with him i have an urge to claw at my skin and roll around on the floor. all useless. its such a pain in the ass. ive felt it before. i believe once was for the same reason as now, a crush. the other time/s i dont remember why. im thinking it had something to do with stress, or wanting to get out of a relationship, i think ive felt it back when my mom forced me to go to church. someone slap me out of this....

whats wrong with me?

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 02:08:55 GMT

for a period of time i will be upset, and what im guessing, being hung over a guy. after a few good unknown hours i will calm down, and think, i want to be happy. he or any other guy wouldnt want an upset down girl. and i decide that im gonna try to be more happy, i can do it. i wander how long its gonna take for another slump.

on a lighter note

Sat, 17 Nov 2007 23:17:52 GMT

Lets101 - Free Online Dating

Sat, 17 Nov 2007 23:17:05 GMT

is it infatuation?

why must you torment me so?

constantly in my head.

why must i torment myself so?

should i remove myself?

i think that would only torment me more.

i cant say i dont hold on to that thin strand of hope.

youre face flashes before my eyes,

youre voice echos in my head,

i hear something that reminds me of you,

i see something that makes me think of you,

why wont you leave my head?

i wont to tear at my head to got to my brain to rip it out,

so it wont torment me anymore.

how cruel, why must i feel this way?

i wish to tell you how i feel,

but i think im afraid.

afraid it will push you away,

afraid that perhaps your not who i think you are,

and will use it against me.

would it make a difference if i told you?

would it do any good?

is this real?

or just infatuation?

if its infatuation, itll go away with time right?

you know that seemed to help a bit, sorry to bother ya with this.

christmas list

Sun, 11 Nov 2007 02:54:04 GMT

- My soul mate
- Money to pay off my collage and parents
- Peace (in the world, of mind, of cake, any form you can think of)

Now for the gifts that are feasible.
- Money
- Gift card (taget, wal-mart, any place that carries clothes or shoes)
- Okami game guide book
- Mythology books (all kinds, i need some other then norse)
- Full Metal Alchemist jaket
- Full metal alchemist game 2
- Bed sheets or comforter (i like wolves, stars, sun, moon, red, blue)
- Looney toons dvd of any kind (no tweety and silvester or whiley coyote)
- Secrets of nyhm dvd
- dvds! (anything with jim carey in it, south park series, Princess mononoke, spirited away, pans labyrinth, boondocks saints, hook, 300, aeroplane 1 and 2, naked gun (any and all), hot shots the second one, thats about all i feel like listing)
- tool cds, radio head cds, perfect circle cds, muse cds,
thats about all i can think of
what you want?

stolen meme

Sun, 11 Nov 2007 02:15:05 GMT

1. If you could have anything delivered to your doorstep each morning, what would it be?
$100 (great answer emily, i will have to agree)

2. Suppose that right now you could be at your favorite vacation spot, reading your favorite book, listening to your favorite CD, & eating your favorite food. What would be your choices for those 4 categories, and who, if anyone, would be with you?

1. Somewhere that never gets too hot or cold.
2. Does the Full Metal Alchemist manga series count?
3. Mer De Norms- Perfect Circle
4. Shrimp fried rice
5. My soul mate, whoever that may be.

3. Which animated character is your all-time favorite?
Daffy Duck

4. If you had to write a brief message on a dollar bill that many people would eventually see as the currency circulates, what would it say?
"Money is evil."

5. You’ve been asked to create a brand new road sign that will be put up on the streets throughout your town. People in your town will be expected to obey it just as they would any other road sign. What will your new sign command drivers to do?
"get out and walk"

6. If you were left alone for one hour with nothing more than a pen and a notepad, what would you be inclined to draw or write during those 60 minutes?
Probably stare at it thinking about what im gonna draw.

7. If you could witness anything at all in super-slow motion, what would you want it to be?
beginning of existence

8. Suppose you’re at a party where you meet an alert & astute 100-year-old person. Since everyone wants to talk to this person, you only have time to ask one question. What would you ask?
"You seem busy, can I get your number so we can talk later?"

9. In one sentence, what do you believe is the secret to life?

10. If someone were looking for you in a bookstore, in what section would they most likely to find you?
They're just gonna have to make a round about the store.

11. Over the last 200 years or so, the world has advanced and changed in many ways. Nonetheless, can you think of at least one aspect of life that has remained virtually unchanged throughout the last 2 centuries?
People are essentially the same. (ill have to agree)

12. Rank the 4 seasons in order from your favorite to least favorite.
Summer, Spring, Fall, Winter

13. In your own not-so-humble opinion, what is your most likable quality?
I'm pretty easy to get a long with, as long as you don't mind someone who is quite.

14. What month of the year does your nose anticipate most? Why?
Fall. I start to smell the rotting leaves and the cold crisp air.

15. What is something you used to love to do but have outgrown or gotten tired of?
Playing with barbies and ponies

16. If you were a fish, what bait would someone use to catch you very quickly?
shrimp

17. If you were a tree, what would be your favorite month of the year?
Spring i guess.

18. What is one event that many people consider entertaining that you personally would have a very difficult time sitting through from the beginning to the end?
Sports.

19. If you were a contestant on a trivia-style game show, what category would you most want to see displayed when it came down to the million dollar question?
"Pets" or "Animals"

20. What is something you enjoy doing that would probably surprise many of the people who think they know you well?
Dont really think there is something.

21. What creature, more than any other, would have you scared stiff if it were loose in your home?
Just about any big hungry/angry carnivore i guess

22. If you could greatly enhance any one of your 5 senses, what one would you choose?
yea, i guess ill have to go with hearing

23. If you could take one ethnic custom that is popular in another country & popularize it in your own culture, which would you pick?
dont know....

24. When you meet someone for the first time, what particular facet about them are you most interested in learning as quickly as possibly?
dont really have one.

25. If you came into enough money that you never had to work another day in your life, what do you think you would typically do to stay busy or keep your mind occupied?
Travel!

26. If any particular moment in your life could have you lasted 5 minutes longer, what moment would you have wanted it to have been?
hasnt happened yet

27. If a movie were being made about your life, and you could choose any actor to play you in the film, whom would you choose?
not good with acter names...

28. If you were to die tomorrow, what would you want people to remember you for most of all?
i dont really have an answer for this.

29. If you could instantly free your mind forever of something that causes you stress in life, what worry would you get rid of?
School.

30. If you had to rename the street you live on, what would you name it?
That one street.

31. If you were given the opportunity to go back to high school, would you?
no, thats quite aright

32. What is one thing you thoroughly enjoy that a large percentage of people would probably consider trite & boring at best?
dont think i got anything

33. What particular facial feature of yours do you personally admire most?
dont know

34. List the 5 things that make you happiest in life.
1. Music
2. Food
3. Spending time with friends
4. No worries
5. Having something to do that i enjoy

35. If you could receive free, unlimited airline flights from your nearest airport to any one destination in the world, to what place would you be frequently flying?
Japan

36. If you had to come up with something that would take the place of a wedding band to serve as an object of union & commitment for marriage, what would you choose?
Matching tattoos on the hand. (i like that idea)

37. Suppose that income taxes still had to be paid, but instead of going to the government, your money would go to any one cause or charity of your choice. Where would you want yours to go?
Feeding the hungry.

38. If you could eliminate one genre of music, what would it be?
Gangsta rap

39. If you could become fully enlightened instantly on any one subject, what would you choose?
martial arts

werid dream

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 16:47:50 GMT

me and jeff (the coworker ive been talking about) were working at petsmart, we were working the night shift for some reason or other. when it was done i stated that hes probably going to want to go straight to sleep when he gets home and he said that he wasnt. so im like cool, lets hang out then. and he said sure. we went outside and petsmart was in a different plaza, which seemed normal in the dream. there were some unknown shops and a ihop, there was also a lake with other stores on the other side. Sara, a really good friend of his, came up to him as we were walking away from petsmart. i decided to walk a head a little and let them talk. i went to the ihop and turned around and they were arguing. she started walking on the water to the other side of the lake. something caught my eye at the water beside me. i looked and it was light coming off of the water and formed a cobra. it stood up and struck at me and said, "im gonna scare ya." then went back into the water and i woke up.

bummed out

Sun, 04 Nov 2007 18:35:46 GMT

so if ya dont know, ive been hanging out with the coworker that ive been talking about for a month now and it didnt seem like any progress was being made. he wasnt returning the affection i was giving. so i asked him what we were, i had to know to ease my mind. he said he didnt know, that he didnt have a definition for anything at the moment that he just had people to have fun with. how torturing. my room mate commented that maybe hes not looking for a relationship, which is very possible. *sigh* god im bummed.

the 3 meme

Tue, 30 Oct 2007 03:52:35 GMT

stolen of course

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
Pay my parents back, find somebody to love and be loved, travel the world

Three Names You Go By:
fenrir, christy, christian

Three Screen Names You Have Had:
fenrir_lokison, kaida_fenrir, tetsura_fenrir

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
eyes, hips, belly

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
indian, french, a nice mix of things im sure but thats what my parents thought was in there

Three Things That Scare You:
getting a disability, being unloved and unwanted, a very long and painful death

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
food, drink, sleep

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
jean pants, loose korn shirt, and panties

Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
perfect circle, yoko kanno, radio head

Three Things You Want In A Relationship:
signs of affection (cuddling, kissing, other little things), communication, truth

Two Truths And A Lie (in no particular order):
feelings are annoying, better to feel then not, the cake is truth http://www.vgcats.com/comics/

Three Physical Things About The Preferred Sex That Appeal To You:
personality, muscles, chest

Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
reading, drawing, watching tv

Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
be with a certain someone, win the lotto, get a new computer

Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered:
3d modeler, cop, vet

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
japan, england and areas around it, france

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl:
i like to shop, i like cute things, im attracted to guys

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Boy:
i like to climb trees, sometimes i wear boy clothes, i like boobies

Three People That I Would Like To See Take This Quiz Now
do you

kick ass im a part of fire fly

Fri, 19 Oct 2007 19:03:20 GMT

Which sci-fi crew would you best fit in with? (pics)
created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Serenity (Firefly)

You like to live your own way and don't enjoy when anyone but a friend tries to tell you should do different. Now if only the Reavers would quit trying to skin you.

Serenity (Firefly)

69%

Heart of Gold (Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy)

63%

Millennium Falcon (Star Wars)

63%

Babylon 5 (Babylon 5)

63%

SG-1 (Stargate)

56%

Enterprise D (Star Trek)

56%

Deep Space Nine (Star Trek)

50%

Moya (Farscape)

50%

Galactica (Battlestar: Galactica)

44%

Nebuchadnezzar (The Matrix)

44%

Andromeda Ascendant (Andromeda)

44%

FBI's X-Files Division (The X-Files)

38%

Bebop (Cowboy Bebop)

25%

date update

Fri, 12 Oct 2007 17:40:38 GMT

so i got to take a guy out, the co worker ive been talking about just in case your wandering. we went to a chicago style pizza place and ate a deep dish, it was delicious. now im at a tough spot. im in a cross road i guess you can say. ive decided to wait on him, to see if he will return the date. not just that but im waiting for his invitation as opposed to asking to go over. just trying to find out if he has interest for me. so i wait, i feel impatient and just a bit worried. if he dosent return the interest i will have to work on removing my interest from him. this is one of the consequences of liking a co worker, im gonna be seeing him a lot at work and that wont help. i have to wait.. i think that is whats getting me the most. i dont know how long to give him and i would like to know if he is interested or not so i know rather i need to get rid of the interest or let it grow. *sigh* i hope he dosnt take long, its looking like a rough couple of days if not week...

bed meme

Fri, 12 Oct 2007 17:19:18 GMT

if by chance we were to randomly wake up next to each other naked, only using three words, what would you say to me ?

no school, no mff

Sun, 07 Oct 2007 00:15:32 GMT

*sigh* unfortunately i am unable to attend mff. i went to my my first day of my last class and learned that i do not have enough and that there is no way i would pass that class with what i had or what i could make within the given time period. so i with drew. i cant go to mff cause i have to save money to help my parents with paying for next quarter.

date!! XD

Mon, 01 Oct 2007 00:58:13 GMT

i did it, i have asked a guy out XD. i asked my co-worker out to eat, im rather proud and excited. XD

date updates

Sun, 30 Sep 2007 22:50:21 GMT

On tuesday i went on my date with the guy from awa. the plan was to meet at sandy springs station, go eat, and go to the theater to watch D-wars (dragon wars). i headed for the bus stop, heard the bus so i ran, saw the bus at the stop, looked quickly left and right. my left was great, i could make it no doubt, my right was ok the cars were behind the bus so i decided to go for it. i ran and it kinda looked like the bus didnt know if it wanted to wait or not. i saw a white van heading for me and i got in front of the bus. i was wearing clodhoopers (big mistake) tripped and fell on my right side. ended up bruising both my knees, got scrapped a little on my right hip were the bone is closest to skin, got an ugly scrap on my left shoulder, and ended up bumping my head. i got up pretty quickly and got on the bus. i couldnt see straight for 5 to 10 mins. scaired the shit outta me. the fact that i was almost ran over didnt hold as strong as fucking my eye sight up or fucking my brain up. got to the station and washed up a bit. went to sandy springs and got some bandaids. the guy was asking if i could meet him in indian creek. i told him no, that it was too far to go, but i would meet him in 5 points. he hasnt been on marta much so he didnt want to get lost. i being the nice person i am decide to go with this and meet him at 5 points. after meeting up with him and going back to sandy spings we ate and caught the movie. it sucked balls. not even the prettyness could save that movie. after that we headed to the mall and looked around. i wasnt feeling the guy so i kinda wantted the date to end. not to mention i didnt know what else to do and it was getting late. so we parted at dunwoody. i rode the train down to sandy springs and got off, i wanted to pick up a late check. found out that the coworker that i liked was there which made me feel a bit better. i got my check and hung around my coworker for a good.... hour or two. and went home, kinda wished i stayed but the thought felt a little embarrassing and i didnt want to wait till he was aloud out just to walk with him to the sation. saturday rolled around and i headed to his place. went to buckhead and found out there were only two buses that went to the sation 23 and 110. i ended up on bus 23. i didnt pay attention to which way i needed to go so naturally i went the easiest way which equaled the opposite way i was suppose to go. i asked to driver if he knew where a petsmart was and he said past the target. so i got off by the target to find out i went the opposite way. so i went across the street to catch another bus. it ended up being the same number 23 bus. i got down to where i needed to be, meet with him, and followed him home. we watched star wars episode 1, some things off youtube, and he played his guitar. i enjoyed it all very much. but im infatuated by him so of course i enjoyed everything there was to enjoy. i had to resist urges to cuddle with him, and just be satisfied with being there. he walked me back to the station and i hugged him. im happy i did cause i wouldnt have regretted it if i didnt. it felt good and right, but then we bring up the fact that im infatuated.. so of course it did. im determined to not be negative, as my mind just spits negative things at me, wont know anything till i try. im trying my best to take it easy and slow. it feels so hard when you want somebody in your life, and here is this person that your interested in. its annoying, its like an addiction you just wanna be with them. the need is strong and demanding, but you have to keep it under control. i dont want to come across as desperate or i dont want to end up making a mistake. after all, i dont really know him. just a few things, and that im interested in him. i get to hang out with him agian on tuesday, i just want to know where this is gonna go. i feel so impatient -.-

dates ^^

Tue, 25 Sep 2007 02:58:25 GMT

I technically have two dates. One you already know about, and can be considered a real date, since the word date actually came up. We are gonna go drink some coffee and go see d-wars. The other is with the co-worker i've talked about. Im gonna go watch star wars with him at his house on saturday. there is a slight chance that this may not go though since he has school early that day. I cant really call this a date cause it could be look at as two co-workers/friends watching some movie/s together. but im still looking forward to it :P.